Boron - Chapter 25

And, believe it or not, I said that a little unconsciously
because I sort of thought he was joking. You see, I just
wasn't on top of things.

On the street, neither of these things would have been a big
deal. But here, there is a lot less slack.

So, now that I know I'm off, what do I do? Well, I certainly
don't intend to fight this guy who I refer to as "The
Rodent". That could cost me six months extra in the joint.
But, I don't want many more of these incidents either. So,
what I intend to do is lay low for a while until I am
feeling strong and not feeling vulnerable.

You know why I'm going to lay low? It's because I'm
concerned. Not physically scared ("The Rodent" isn't very
threatening) but concerned that I better get back on top
mentally to be more prepared to deal with this environment.

Does it seem like I'm making a big deal out of all this?
Don't kid yourself. It's serious. I'm missing L like crazy
right now, I am missing my freedom, I am angry about having
to be here, I am diminished by my previous confrontation, I
am weak from fasting, I am tired (albeit pleasantly) from my
long run and all the time I spend in the sun and, in
general, I am a bit weakened.

I am starting to make mistakes.

No good. Not here. So, what I intend to do is fall back and
regroup.

I am, for a little while, gong to try to avoid (as far as
possible) my fellow inmates. I'm going to fast tomorrow and
sort of hid out. I don't intend to fast again after that for
another week. You know, when I'm on the street (God, I even
talk like a con now!) I also avoid people whenever I fast
and it is even more important here.