Boron - Chapter 25

Does it seem like I'm making a big deal out of all this?
Don't kid yourself. It's serious. I'm missing L like crazy
right now, I am missing my freedom, I am angry about having
to be here, I am diminished by my previous confrontation, I
am weak from fasting, I am tired (albeit pleasantly) from my
long run and all the time I spend in the sun and, in
general, I am a bit weakened.

I am starting to make mistakes.

No good. Not here. So, what I intend to do is fall back and
regroup.

I am, for a little while, gong to try to avoid (as far as
possible) my fellow inmates. I'm going to fast tomorrow and
sort of hid out. I don't intend to fast again after that for
another week. You know, when I'm on the street (God, I even
talk like a con now!) I also avoid people whenever I fast
and it is even more important here.

So, first I'm going to lay low and secondly, I am going to
try not to "emerge" until I have pumped a little iron.

You know, I may be wrong but, I think had I been "pumped"
neither of these incidents would have happened. I think this
for two reasons:

1) I would have been more alert and never did the things
that perpetuated these incidents.

2) And secondly, when I am "pumped" and on top of things,
people react differently to me because I send out different
"vibes".

By the way, another way I can tell I am stressed right now
is my vision is a little blurred.

So now, after all this preamble can I relate any of this to
your success at DM and MO? You bet. At the time in my life
when I was making the most money, I followed the same
procedure I am talking about here. Namely: I pay attention
to myself and when I am off, I drop out of sight and do what
is necessary to strengthen myself.