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How about attaching an eagle feather to a letter that tells
how these birds are in danger of becoming extinct?

How about attaching a Mexican Peso to a letter that talks
about inflation? I did it and it was a great puller.

How about a computer microchip attached to a letter that
explains why a certain new electronic product is superior to
the competition?

How about my son attaching a picture of himself to a letter
to his old man that tells him how he is getting into good
shape?

How about you send me some ideas along these lines?

I Love…

# Boron - Chapter 25

The Boron Letters - Chapter 25

Friday, 7:14 PM

July 7, 1984

Dear Bond,

Tonight I am going to be writing about something I didn't
think I was going to be writing about.

I just had a minor confrontation in the chow hall with a guy
I've had a little trouble with before. He was…

I glared at him and walked away. We were starting to attract
attention and there were (always are) guards in the mess
hall.

Really, this is no big deal except in a way, it is. This guy
is not very much like the room mate I had some trouble with.
This guy is young, tattooed and stupid. He is a…

He is always messing up, he smokes dope and he is in the
Lieutenant's office often for disciplinary action.

I would probably kick the living $#!+ out of this guy. You
never know for sure, I could be wrong but he is not a big,
bad type. Mostly, he is just plain stupid.

But what may be instructive in all this is why it happened
and what I hope to do about it so I, hopefully, don't have
to deal with it again.

First of all, let me explain that both the incident with my
roommate and this incident happened when I was "off". As a
matter of fact, I am off…

Right now, also, (or in conjunction with) being off, I am
also quite vulnerable. I have fasted two days this week, I
am missing L and I have been, in general, feeling sad.

No big deal. Except when you are in prison. When you are in
prison, even a very easy one like this one, your "Karma", I
believe, is…

Remember how I told you, you could sort of tell if you were
off by how close you could guess what time it is? Well,
another indicator is if you bump into things just a tiny bit
or you are just a tiny bit clumsy. Don't forget HALT.
Hungry. Angry. Lonely. Tired. When I went into that mess
hall…

Now, here's an interesting thing about both of these two
incidents. In both cases, I was "wrong". Not big deal wrong.
But wrong from a not being aware and on top of things
aspect. You see, in the incident with my roommate, if I had
been aware, I would have realized that my radio was causing
an infuriating disturbance…

And, believe it or not, I said that a little unconsciously
because I sort of thought he was joking. You see, I just
wasn't on top of things.

On the street, neither of these things would have been a big
deal. But here, there is a lot less slack.

So, now that I know I'm off, what do I do? Well, I certainly
don't intend to fight this guy who I refer to as "The
Rodent". That could cost me six months extra in the joint.
But, I don't want many more of these incidents either. So,
what I intend to do is lay low for…

You know why I'm going to lay low? It's because I'm
concerned. Not physically scared ("The Rodent" isn't very
threatening) but concerned that I better get back on top
mentally to be more prepared to deal with this environment.

Does it seem like I'm making a big deal out of all this?
Don't kid yourself. It's serious. I'm missing L like crazy
right now, I am missing my freedom, I am angry about having
to be here, I am diminished by my previous confrontation, I
am weak from fasting, I am tired (albeit pleasantly) from…

I am starting to make mistakes.

No good. Not here. So, what I intend to do is fall back and
regroup.

I am, for a little while, gong to try to avoid (as far as
possible) my fellow inmates. I'm going to fast tomorrow and
sort of hid out. I don't intend to fast again after that for…

So, first I'm going to lay low and secondly, I am going to
try not to "emerge" until I have pumped a little iron.

You know, I may be wrong but, I think had I been "pumped"
neither of these incidents would have happened. I think this
for two reasons:

1) I would have been more alert and never did the things
that perpetuated these incidents.

2) And secondly, when I am "pumped" and on top of things,
people react differently to me because I send out different
"vibes".

By the way, another way I can tell I am stressed right now
is my vision is a little blurred.

So now, after all this preamble can I relate any of this to
your success at DM and MO? You bet. At the time in my life
when I was making the most money, I followed the same
procedure I…

It is important here, it is important out there, and it is
especially important in business dealings. People can smell
it when you are weak. When you are vulnerable. They can
smell success too. They can sniff out a winner.

And you can't fake it. Not for long. You've got to be
it!

Lord I'm tired. My vision is more blurred. And, I have just
made some minor but maybe important changes in my planned
routine over the next little piece of time. I'll tell you
what they are when I resume writing.

What I have decided is, I had better not take a day off
running right now. I intend to run in the morning and fast
tomorrow. And, then, run again Sunday, even though I fasted
the day before. What I'll do I think, is I'll get up early
like (sun up) 5AM and eat a couple oranges and…